Love Love Love Love!

Hi hi hi! I wish I had more time to post; I have tons of school and work things scheduled! And I've been spending more time with Luis... oh my gosh I have such strong feelings for this man, and they multiplied a million times today.


Luis and I found a dog while we were driving to our homes last night. He was an old salt-and-pepper schnauzer and I couldn't keep him at my parent's homes with their respective dogs and problems. So Luis took him in for the night:) We found the owner and gave him back (scored 50 bucks!) a few hours ago. I was disappointed, but thinking about Luis and his amazing kindness and sensitivity to my emotions made me feel loads better. He's a dream...my dream! I'm so overwhelmed with love for him. Although I'll probably never have kids with him and all that gushy stuff that costs money, I always want to be with him. 


Danielle.

So much happiness:)

I recently dyed the rest of my hair (finally it's all black!) and I found the straightener and the scissors yesterday soooo the above happened. Only two inches were lost in the process and my bangs look super short! And feel free to gaze at my skin please; Proactiv keeps it soft and my birth control keeps it clear. Very happy with my skin right now!:)

I visited my boyfriend today...I can't explain how content I am with him right now. It's like we were always meant to be together, we just needed time to get it right. I'm so happy I'm back in his life, and my sister (my other love yess) likes spending time with him! yayy!

Oh I made my hair large and in charge. Thought it looked super sexual.

I'll update soon on my progress:)

Danielle

Wedding planning!

It's sticky, hot and fantastic outside! 80 degrees, the sun is shining like summer, and all I've been doing today is planning my metaphorical wedding on theknot.com. As in, I'm not going to get married anytime soon and there's no literal set date or even a set person to get married to and I'm typing a run-on sentence because I would say this sentence just like this. I've technically been engaged before to a creepy, creepy boy, and the idea of marriage freaks me out now! It's still fun to pick out everything though.


I want a wedding in a small local park decorated with gorgeous spring flowers (gardenias and tulips please!), with less than 30 of my closest friends and family surrounding us. After the ceremony, we would all walk to one of our favorite restaurants or have a late lunch outside, weather permitting. I'm so super cheap ahaha, even my wedding band/engagement rings cost less than $300 (photos all from sundance catalog)! I want my future wedding as low-key and relaxing as possible, to enjoy my friends and family and my future husband, of course. 


Maybe, if I find later that I'm cut-out for marriage, this will all happen.
Danielle

Jealousy

My baby is at the Neon Indian concert tonight! I love the fact that he can pick up and go somewhere suddenly and have fun doing it; he never needs to plan anything ever. The sad thing about that is I can never move in with him (which I've been thinking about for some reason), and sometimes I'm jealous when he spends time away.


I'm not jealous that my boyfriend has his attention fixed on other things; I'm jealous of the fact that his attention is not fixed on me (I got that from the newer edition of The Ethical Slut, which is one of my favorite books now). I feel that I'm not supposed to say these things, but sometimes I don't feel appreciated and loved, mainly because I  measure appreciation and love with the time someone spends with me. He and I both know that I like to spend more time with him than he does with me, and we've both agreed to deal with it. I just wish sometimes that I didn't have to.


And I still want to live with him. He's so super clean! I would cook and he would clean. Too bad he doesn't have a job. That pretty much ruins it. 


Danielle

My Love

Baby won't let me take pictures of him, so these are very old ones from last years trip to Denton and the Dallas Zoo. I have to surprise him some day with my camera! A few days ago I let him know that I felt that I wanted him more than he wanted me; as in, I wanted to talk to him more. I thought that discussion was over, but he surprised me by inviting me to dinner that night, then I slept over and we headed to White Rock Lake in the morning. It was one of the best days I have ever had with a person! Some days I wonder how I even got a guy this amazing. He's the most beautiful, sweet, stable, funny guy I've every met, even if sometimes he is annoying haha. I love him so much!! I just want to cuddle his neck and do everything with him all the time. Hopefully, I'll stay with him for awhile this time;p


Danielle

Relationship Status?

Gabi and I landsharking!

I've been on a serious Steve Pavlina kick lately-if you haven't read any of his stuff, please check him out. Everything he says seems so logical, especially his more popular post about why you shouldn't get a job. It makes me almost sad because I'm so happy working at Bath and Body Works, but I see where he's coming from. I can see how people can become trapped in their job, or at least confined to only making money when they work. Anyways, some of my favorites include his post about label-free relationships (something I would love to try with a certain someone) and personal development and BDSM (something I did try when I was single and I LOVED IT.) Enjoy these, and the rest of his blog as well!


And for the "Relationship Status?" title, I have updates on my relationship with Luis that I'll talk about soon!


Danielle

You Matter

One of my favorite guys in the whole world:)

One thing I've learned this week: make decisions based on your feelings and your thoughts. Your friends are going to say one thing, and your parents/church/authority figures will say another, but what matters is you: they are your feelings, your thoughts, and it's your future! I felt like going out with my ex last Friday, and we had a wonderful and fulfilling time laying around on my couch all night. We hung out the next night too, talking about our (failed) relationship, and the specific things that piss us off about the other. He had literally no idea that I was jealous of his best girl friend (That one chick who I met, but doesn't remember me. That one.)! 


Anyways, he is honestly one of my favorite people in the world, and I love hanging out with him. He's the most positive people I know. Positive people are beautiful, always be that way.
 
Danielle

Feelings Today

Today I worked 6 hours after homework, and the entire day all I could think was “I really want a drink”. I was literally salivating thinking about vodka and juice and Four Loko. That has never happened before! It's like I'm going through withdrawals...for something I only got to experience for a few months. Alcohol addiction runs in my biological family (yayy!), so that played a part in me liking the feeling of being drunk so much. I would drink for everything! Usually just because though. I've been a week and 2 days sober so far, and it sucks so badly. I can't wait till I can control myself and get drunk responsibly!

Besides my drinking issues, I'm completely content with everything in my life. You know that feeling you get when you're so incredibly happy that you think there's a upbeat, romantic soundtrack in the background of your life? I hope you have, because I feel that know and it's simply amazing. I feel loved, and I feel so full of love that I want to share it with everyone! Mostly my family, friends, and Luis. They have stuck by me during all my bad moods, suicidal thoughts and attempts, and addictions, so they most definitely deserve positive Danielle. So do you for reading!

Danielle

Celebrate the Love!

Happy Valentine's Day! I made a list of all the things I want to do especially for today.

•  For everyone reading (not just "sad single gals"), how about writing yourself a Valentine today? Make a list of all the things that you like about yourself! I find that it's much easier (and much less awkward) to write a letter than saying affirmations in a mirror. That creeps me out!
• I seriously want to go to the Loving Hut in Dallas (coming soon!). It's a family-owned chain with over 150 other locations all around the world, dedicated to spreading the vegan lifestyle. There's one already in Arlington!
• If you're wanting something more relationship related, visit Rachel Rabbit's blog and leave your ideas on whether or not men and women can actually be friends. We all have had that one relationship that could have been more..
• My mother's and sister's advice?(and my favorite): Buy flowers and chocolates after Valentine's Day, when they're all on sale! So frugal, those two;p

Have a fantastic day and night, whether you're single or not!


Danielle