Today
I worked 6 hours after homework, and the entire day all I could think was “I
really want a drink”. I was literally salivating thinking about vodka and juice
and Four Loko. That has never happened before! It's like I'm going through
withdrawals...for something I only got to experience for a few months. Alcohol
addiction runs in my biological family (yayy!), so that played a part in me
liking the feeling of being drunk so much. I would drink for everything!
Usually just because though. I've been a week and 2 days sober so far, and it
sucks so badly. I can't wait till I can control myself and get drunk responsibly!
Besides my drinking issues, I'm completely content with everything in my life. You know that feeling you get when you're so incredibly happy that you think there's a upbeat, romantic soundtrack in the background of your life? I hope you have, because I feel that know and it's simply amazing. I feel loved, and I feel so full of love that I want to share it with everyone! Mostly my family, friends, and Luis. They have stuck by me during all my bad moods, suicidal thoughts and attempts, and addictions, so they most definitely deserve positive Danielle. So do you for reading!
Danielle
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